I never was a poet...

I was going through and recycling papers today in an effort to minimize the piles of stuff that we will be moving with us to the South, and I came across a poem written, I think, by my old college roommate.  It immediately took me back to the campus lawn at dusk, sitting cross-legged in the grass listening to her practice her beat poetry.  I had no idea what beat poetry was, but the coffee house crowd was dark and mysterious and seemed oh-so-cool.  I never figured out how to snap in rhythm, and I never figured out exactly what the poems were talking about. Surrounded by that hipster crowd, sipping my hot chocolate and pretending it was coffee, I felt all artsy for a couple of hours.  Then I would go back to my straightforward pre-med courses.  I appreciated her for that.  I can't say I agree with everything she wrote, but this is the poem I found, edited slightly for space:

I seek and search.

Down red brick avenues,

dusty winding roads.

Like Ponce De Leon

in pursuit of that nirvanic utopian place.

See, I want to live in a perfect world. 

Is it too much to ask? 

A perfect world where the three stooges would be Chris Farley, John Candy,

and of course Curly. 

Because Larry was destined for punk rock

Not Moe

Because he was a mean little bastard anyway.

Where we all speak in French.

No fat grams or health clubs.

Where Keanu Reeves can act.

Like the Scarecrow in the Wizard of Oz,

George Bush would get a brain.

Mike Tyson would get --- help.

In the perfect world you wouldn’t have to be bright or cool or on.

You could just be.

No stereotypes

Of being skinny or fat or pretty or ugly or old.

No Self magazine,

Vogue, or GQ.

Where all the angels

Are Downs Syndrome children

Because aren’t they the sweetest angels already?

The seraphim is Joni Mitchell

Singing songs from the Blue album.

On a cloud veranda, there’s Bob Dylan

Singing anything he wants.  He’s Bob Dylan.

And every song in a perfect world

Would be sung with the pain and the passion

Of how Ben Harper sings “Oppression”

Or how Richie Havens sang “Freedom” at Woodstock.

Where God would look like Frank Zappa

With legs like Giselle

And would play two guitars

One like Hendrix

And the other like BB King

And He’d belt out truth like Martin Luther King

In sweet lyrics like Carol King

Have hair like Don King

Because He is the King of Kings

His throne would be a metal chair

In a tree shaded yard

Surrounded by a perpetual drum circle

And He’d have time to talk and listen

We’d all have time to listen and talk.

Yeah, no hate or war or hunger –

Those are givens,

But what about loneliness

Or failure – NADA!

It would be what all dreamers dream

What the beat poets wrote about

What the songwriters of the 60’s sang

Where even Satan

Would find his mantra

Or get saved

Or at least commit to rehab

But this isn’t a perfect world

And when I think I’ve found it,

It pixilates and fragments into its fallen sometimes horrific reality

And I’m just a little weary.

But we have this,

You and I.

Maybe, if we can be real

And honest

Have a little understanding and love

We can capture a perfect moment.

And for now,

Perhaps that will have to be enough.